The secret journal of JC the Terrible!

another long absence

arh.... yesss! It's me back in action again. Since November 2005, I have been struggling in my work. It might have been the attitude that I have shown my bosses during that period of time. The progress in my career seem to have freeze in time. Do you know the feeling of not being appreciated?? Well it ain't a good feeling, negativeness in whatever you are doing.

One fine day on the 6th March 2006, my Uncle offered me a opportunity. He has asked me to help him in his expanding business. The salary might not be as great as many might have thought, but I took it anyway due to the fact that I was already fedup my ungreatful bosses. This decision was quite sudden that even my parents weren't too supportive at 1st, Why? Working for relatives are not that cool, but hell, I just need to get out of that craphole. During this month long period was endless struggle to face the changes of my comfort zone. I had to look for a car as I was driving a company car all along, have to prepare my mental to work long hours and so on in the near future. Not cool at all. Too many things to do in a month.

Finally, today is my 5th day at work. Currently I am situated in my uncle's office in Kelana Jaya. I will be running around town starting next week looking after my uncle's operation. 6 days week and off during weekdays as weekends are the time when people will crowd in malls. Anyhow, I have known my colleagues for quite some time, it was easy for me to blend in to the crowd. Though missing my ex-colleagues and the working environment is inevitable, bearing it and moving on is also inevitable as long have to go forward.

Did I tell you I am doing?? No? Sorry about that. I am now under the payroll of Reboot System (M) Sdn. Bhd. This company is the marketing arm of APR (Asia Pacific Reserve) Electronic Services Sdn. Bhd. APR-ES is one of the largest importer of Used Computers (PC, Laptops). For further information, please visit our website @ http://www.apr-es.com/. I am in-charge of two retail outlets in Klang Valley, Ampang Point and Kompleks Pertama. I know, I know, totally a different line from what I study..... but being an engineer is not what I intent to do for the rest of my life, so ask me no more okie? This will be one of my greatest challange currently. If everything turns out right, I will be looking after more and more outlets in the Peninsular. Keep my fingers crossing.........

arh.... too long a passage. I will have to continue later.

my blog.. i am sorry!

It's been months since I last wrote in the blog, I was thinking the whole night what actually went wrong. After getting miliions of my brain cell dead, it would be most probly that I was very contended with my life for the past few months. But really do I feel so? I am doubtful myself.....

It was quite recently I find that I am not an obedient worker no more. I use to say "yes sir, i understand" nothing more and nothing less when my boss conducts a private "screwing" session with me. But recently, I changed, I do not know wheter it is a good thing or not? Now, I know what the boss wants but he is trying to beat around the bush all the time, therefore I use a technique that is very common.. I throw the ball at him at make him speak up accordingly.... No more "yes sir" kinda shit anymore. I think he also sees the change in me just last week. Everytime I do it to him, his eyes will pop out and mouth wide open... staggered for a moment. It was a moment of triumph when I do that!

I guess being a hardworking, obedient and loyal worker does not get the figures in the paycheck to increase. Then why do it? I also don't know, it must be my subconcious that was embedded in me by my dad. These qualities are heading for extinction in the current world, and yet there are people.. alhem like my boss who doesn't appreciate it. I am not saying that these qualities should not be pratice, but we must be practical in using it. Don't just follow blindly, use it wisely.

Life is always very fair. You get some you lose some. I always tell my friends around me, and I quote:" In life, if everything and everybody are the same, won't life be boring?" My defination is that if everyone has the same experience, same health, same wealth, same wisdom, same temper, etc, etc. What difference are we compared to those mindless machines?

As my age increases, I see things very differently. So many years to come (if that I can live a reasonably long life), so many things to understand, so many things to see. Mix feelings are common when you think of it, not so?

time is like a flying arrow....

It has been  weeks since I wrote to the blog. Time does fly and as the old chinese saying:" time is like a flying arrow", once it has been shot, there is no return to point zero. I have been doing some thinking the past couple of days, what has been done on the same date last year..... well loads. It is tough and too much for me  to tell you all of this in this blog.

Travelling has been taking my time recently. Spending most of my time with my butt sticking to the seat of all means of transportation created by the utmost wisdom of mankind... I think my butt is getting bigger due to the compression of my body weight to it. Although I pretty much like to travel, but all these time spent on waiting for the Jet, driving in and out of the same place, meeting the same old people...... it sucks!

Well, of these shitty stuffs, I hope I will not need to travel next month as it will be the Ramadan Month, and Indonesia is mostly Muslims too. I can foresee myself going fasting with my counterparts there, imagine the eat-aholic, drink-aholic JC  turned into a walking dried up corpse... and I'll be damn!

All the complains is no good for the morale, I am actually looking forward to this coming Saturday where I will celebrating a certain event! Hey call me if you want to know more info k? Really looking forward to it...... Damn, time really flies, 1.37AM time for bed, I know someone will definately kill me for being up so late... ta,  people!!!

sneaky sons of b****es....

It was a shocking news for all the members of the Bachelor Boys Club, though I resigned my position in the club, I had mixed feelings about it too. It happened so suddenly until I have to grasp for air!

It happened on an uneventful Sunday morning, I woke up quite early today with unexceptional spirit to do somethoing special. But then I ended up watching "Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd Gig" which was one of the few anime that I find very interesting  nowadays.... as I was minding my own business, the MSN pop out a window and the message quote:" I'm leaving the BBC!" before I got to reply him, he was offline.

News travels fast, while I'm writing this blog, me best friend Daniel the Executer is questioning our defendent about his wanting out of the BBC before we can grant him his right! But the news is too shocking ! I just cannot take it! For the Ex- BBC and current members should now know who I am refering to! Yes, our Founder, longest serving member, the president of the club! Wei Loon that sneaky you know what!

As one of his best friends, I was totally unaware of his intentions for this gal..... No indication, no what so ever!

It's too exciting, the trial has become unpredictable.... it seems now the Executor is being slap in the face with all the trout that Loon can find.... it's so tense.... I'll gather more information and broadcast it as soon as possible...

jc out!

it was a lie.....

i woke up pretty late this afternoon after a hard night's session of clubbing in Rum Jungle. It was my first time there, sound kinda lame won't you think? But then it was bachelor's night, 7 of us. Namely, ah mun, ah qiao, ah cheong, ah kong, ah herng, ah beng and me. i am sorry as I cannot post their full names in the blog for privacy issues.

The night kick start with us sitting there waiting for something to happen, eventually something did happen, 3 ladies were in our sight, so we sent out our daring mercenaries to seek and destroy the targets. All cost will be bared by the HQ (we actually offered two guys RM150 just to get their names and number) What happened was , the guys were not straight to the point to seek and destroy but they put in feelings for it.... their self imposed righteous virtues started to kick in........ bad night? Yeah you coulda say that.

I wrote this to answer to my friend's blog(ah Herng) that I just read. There were no gutless chicken shit or whatsoever, it was about training them to tackle girls. They were bachelors for too long. Though we did say nasty things and offered them money to challenge them is just another technique that guys use (FYI) to make them approach the girls and get something good for themselves, but it was by all means a good cause. But then I the evil flotsam as he named us was saying that we were bad influence, rotten apple and so on and so forth, but you should see him in action that night, chicken but he enjoyed every minute of it.

He was kinda stiff during the first 20 minutes or so, but then he was warmed up, started talking like hmm.... nobody's business. As i mentioned earlier, his self imposed "decent guy" virtues pulled him back!

I was kinda pissed when he bent the truth in his blog.... he knew what we were doing and he just needed a push from the back..... ain't this what friends are for? Please dun misjudge us as we plea not guilty in our actions!

humans are so funny.....

Okie, I admit, I am a human too. As all of my readers notice, I have been complaining my about my work since I started this blog. Since a couple of months ago, I was really down, no matter how people try to make me feel good or shown me the facts that I shouldn't be feeling annoyed and so on, the golden words just don't register in my mind.

And just today morning, I just suddenly and I really mean suddenly, I was enlighted. My Mind quoted itself:"Hey, it's another shitty day for another shitty workload, just enjoy the shitty moments, may be you can find something real cool out of it!" And all a sudden I was feeling more optimistic about work, me, and life. Funny....

I have a very good friend who is now in UK. Let me do a background on him. He is a divorcee, caught his wife and another man in bed, his son was only 7 then. He owns a chinese takeaway and he really has the cooking skills to make sure his business blossoms, but it didn't. He is living a very tough life and I really mean it, he is basically living in poverty. He is in shit since the day he divorce.

But it didn't stop him from surviving, He stills run his shop, best of all with his income, he still do loads of charity. I was impress by his personality and I ask him don't you feel that the world and God treats you with unfairness? and he answered:" I did, but I was just enlighten and I opened up to accept the challenges in life with a positive mind." I never really didn't understand much, but he told me that in time I will understand." I always remembered what he quoted:" Your heart is like a window, and you holds the key to it, no matter how people talk sense to you, if you do not open the window, it really means nothing. When you open the window, you will find that the world is actually not bad at all and you will not be the top of the shitlist. There is always people shittier than you and there are people less shittier than you, you will always be in the center" End quote Well, these are actually my translated version and what I understand from his quotes, he sounds more "art" when he quoted me.

So, shitty is always better than no shit. No shit you are scared to get dirty, when you already have shit, it really doesn't matter anymore.........

Wonderful island

Yeah, yeah, I know. I have not been writing to the blog for the past week. But I just can't help it as My work was like piling up ever since I took a few days of to the wonderful Island of Redang.

The first day on the island was a dull day as rain kept an marathonic stamina till late at night. Anyhow, I was able to get some snorkering done, but the underworld looks dull too. That was not the chanllenging part, swimming 2 times the load was. The problem was with my girl friend who deos really swim well... as the matter of fact, she can't even swim. Anyway, with her on my back, it got me thinking the fact that I really need to do the really macho thing, male ego some call it... protecting and caring for her..... sometimes I just don't know am I ready to do the extreme for her?

LIfe in Redang is just relaxing as there can be if is not that Maxis has coverage over that area. Stupid colleagues just keep calling me and there I was putting up the message that I was on Annual Leave, but I think they choose to ignore the sentence and just keep going and going...... Like the Energiser Battery! To hell with them!

Apart these few unseen circumstances, I really did enjoy my vacation. It just so cool to take a break with the one I love to do something together. Hmm.... I think I could do somemore with this feeling. So anyone with suggestion of where to go and without MAXIS coverage?

leading a controversial life....

am I being clouded by my own thoughts?? I guess I am not too clear about my mind to make a statement. As my buddy Daniel the Transcendent Wannabe always put it, if you are the one who is feeling F**ked Up where others just feel fine, then the problem is with you, YOU ARE REALLY F**KED UP!!!

He is definitely a friend that squeeze you between your legs and bring you back into the Real World. Get you start to think about your own being. But then, humans are always about themselves, and this "moral" has been with us from the beginning when human roam the earth. How can we change? How can I change? A tough question to answer!

I have been doing some think since last night, yeah! Since I'm just a mere mortal. I need to think more for myself. Look after my rear more carefully. Protocols and procedures will be followed. Emails, teleconferencing, verbal agreement and so on will be documented no matter from who. More paper work, but less thorns pricking my back. That I can foresee. With this kind of selfishness, I might bring myself to a higher level of office politics..

One of my primary principle, and I quote:" If you want someone to remember you, you must be either extremely good or extremely bad; Being good and remembered is easy, make everyone hate you and they still remember you, that's the challenge!" I tried the easy part and sucked hard at it. I think I still prefer the challenging part, it is my destiny!

World! Prepare to meet JC the Terrible!!!

the path of illumination?

I've seen the light.. I've finished reading Dan Brown's Angels & Demons. I was first fascinated by Dan's Da Vinci Code when my brother brought it over to my place during his term break last year. Those who has not read his book should check it out, hmm.... may be some will not like it.... well, it all depends I guess

I've been travelling more and more by air planes lately. As one of the contractor commented on my frequency of absence at Site meetings, and he quote:" JC is living a jet seat life, if we want a meeting, just go to the airport to get the job done." Well, to be honest, I'm quite embarrassed at that moment. But what the heck, at least I get some time off from the local work stress and get myself acquinted with some best selling novels.

Oh well, the novel that I really want to read now is Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince which is going to launce soon, or is it launched? Kinda lost on dates nowadays, working zombie. Everyday wake up, work, go home sleep.... kinda routine. I hope I don't get too numb with this life....

Anyway, I'll be heading off to Pulau Redang this weekend.... the path of illumination as I am always in the dark. I've never been to Redang, I really hope that I can get  some rest, peace and quiet when i'm there....I am really looking forward to this vacation!

to johor and back again

argh..... to Johor.... The State in Malaysia that I least want to go. I always feel that the place is a cowboy town, most of all it is infested by those who think that they are more superior than us, a.k.a. Singaporeans. Again, work has forced me to take a trip down under. To take the big plunge....

Driving to the country side of Johor is much better than travelling through the Highway as usual for me. Travelling through the old road, you will pass through alot of towns that you only see on highway signboards. For example, Yong Peng, Simpang Renggam, Ayeh Hitam and many more. How many people has actually been in these townships since the highway was open?

Life was chilled as I stayed overnight in Kulai, a quiet town 20km away from JB, a place for a simple man like me.. Ahem. to get some peace and quiet from the rushing and hectic life of the Concrete Forest. After a day's rest, life seems to be much more beautiful, but sadly I have to leave it for the CF again.......sigh:(